It’s turkey time! That’s right the holidays are here and in full effect! We begin the season with a day of thanks and end it with the hope of a fresh start in a new year. But let’s be honest, sometimes it can be a challenge to be filled with a holiday spirit. I know I haven’t felt it….
A couple of weeks ago when I began seeing Christmas decorations on display, it took me aback. It wasn’t just because I was thrust into the consciousness that, “Wow, it is in fact holiday season,” but I also realized that I just didn’t feel it. This time last year I was anticipating the holidays and felt pretty good. I even decorated my place, and I NEVER do that! I was determined to enjoy the holidays as much as I could with as little as I had. And it was one of the more enjoyable holiday seasons I ever experienced. But something about this year is different.
I cannot and will not fake the funk. This year has kicked my ass! (If you notice, my blog posts have become a bit, um sporadic.) I just haven’t had it-not the spirit nor the energy to do anything that absolutely does not have to be done. And I know many others who who’ve been fighting the good fight trying to get through life and all its mad, inexplicable trials. So many of us have been and are continuing to be tested in every way possible; financially, emotionally, spiritually and physically, making it just a little difficult to feel thankful. And in those times maybe it’s best to ride out the emotions and let it be.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, be grateful that you woke up today-okay, that’s a given, but sometimes what we’re waking up to is just too much. And in those times is when it’s the hardest to see the light at the end of a seemingly never-ending tunnel. Been there, done that. But I got to a point where I just allowed myself feel what I felt, and didn’t put any pressure on myself to fake it and try to act like life was cute. I gave in; waved the white flag and said, “Uncle.” And in giving in I accepted. And in acceptance there was peace. And with peace there was gradual change. And with gradual change came genuine gratitude.
So though this may be a challenging time for some to be filled with the holiday spirit, and really feel thankful considering the events that may have taken place, I ask you not to just look at what you’ve been through, but look at how you’ve come through. Celebrate your endurance. And if for no other reason, be thankful for that.
What's one thing (about yourself) you're thankful for?